I believe in the concept of community. I believe unity brings strength. But looking at how decadent the community has become, I have lost faith in that community. To that end, I choose to leave that community, stand on the outside and watch it burn.
I used to think this was a fertile soil where knowledge would bring depth and develop one's character. I used to believe there is much wisdom waiting to be harvested. But now I think this is a desert beyond salvation. The expansion of the Sahara brings not life but death. The sand of a barren desert cannot bear fruit.
There is nothing I could do and no longer any that I would do to try and stop the spread of an innate disease that comes from deep within. The assumed infallibility of the leadership is like cancer, it corrupts and it doesn't stop corrupting until everything is corrupted. Like a forest fire, it will keep burning until everything become a wasteland.
What comes to waste is not the lives the community fails to reach but the lives within that it corrupts. I already failed on my part and I would only keep failing if I kept trying.
The community stops being a community and has progressed to being a cult. Where it is the leaders the adherents worship and held as a god in their midst.